The final post

This post was supposed to be up on Wednesday, but I contemplated about posting it. I busied myself with work and writing about work related stuff but it just keeps getting back to me.

On Wednesday, I got two rude shocks.

The first one. (The milder of the two)

I know YOU read my blog.
Abstracted from HER blog dated 08/03/2006

Did she mean me? According to her, she is fine with it.

If it is fine with her, it is fine with me.

The second one. (More impact)

I've learnt that she too knows about my blog.

It was totally unexpected, and I could do nothing to stop HER from knowing my blog address.

All because someone decided to let the cat out of the bag!

Cowboy Caleb once wrote,

Blogging is mental masturbation. You can either do it in the privacy of your room (albeit: pen and paper) or you can be kinky and wank off in public, where the thrill of other bloggers discovering your nasty habit is high.

Admit it, you want to be caught. It gives you a sense of exhiliration. You blog because you want the rest of the world to share the experience with you, otherwise you might as well just kill a few trees and start a diary instead.

But when you get caught, you cry bloody murder. Nobody forced you to post those pics. Nobody put a gun to your head and told you to write those words. You did it - all by yourself. You wanted to.

You practically sign away all your rights to privacy when you blog.


All of a sudden, I feel very exposed.

I can't hide under my nickname anymore, despite my many attempts to cover up the man behind my online moniker.

Now that my blog is discovered by HER, I don't think I will be able to express my thoughts as freely as I used to anymore.

Everytime I want to blog about HER, I can't.

Especially when I know that she will be reading about what I write.

I suddenly have no more urge to blog, even though I had a few drafts in my mind already.

This may very well be my very final post.

I may start a new blog, I may not.

Even if I do start anew, I would not be posting as The Lecherous Monk any longer.

I like you all to know that it has been a fun and interesting journey for me. The interesting photoshopped photos, my "being SDU" project", my opinions on events that happen in and outside school etc etc.

Its sad but I feel that I have to let go of my identity which I have painstakingly nurtured and maintained over my past 24 years.

To all my friends who reads my blog, I've never regretted letting you know about my blog address despite the risk involved. I guess secrets can't be kept forever. There will always be a risk of exposure despite my many attempts to hide things. But I still want to thank you people for supporting me and my blog over this past year.

To all the total strangers who bookmarks my blog/reads my blog/have commented, people like Janice, Skybellz, Gabrielle, SB, Kawa, and the many unknowns. You know who you are. I'm honoured to have my blog being patronised by you people.

All you readers just gave me a motivation to just keep blogging, and blogging and blogging. Don't worry, I'll still pop over to your blogs whenever I have the time.

Thank you again.

Toodles.

Adding salt to injury

By the time I've finished what I had to do at the launch of Bookfest 2006 and I still had to go over to Toa Payoh HDB Hub to help to pack up. By the time I reached there, all I got to see was the prize giving ceremony.

I was right. As a crew, I got to standby beside the DJ console and get a good view of everything without squeezing with the rest of the people.

With such a big event, I reckon that someone would be officially taking a video of the entire show. If you are the videoman, and is reading this, can you upload it somewhere please? Much appreciated.

And lastly, I like to thank LQ, for adding salt to injury.

You piece of shit.

I'm going to miss it all!

I've helped to setup the DJ console, the speakers, the stage monitors, the lights and I have to be stationed at Singapore Expo tomorrow instead.

I SO want to go and see the Cheerobics finals at Toa Payoh HDB Hub! Since I am one of the crew, I know that I will have one of the best views inside the barricades. Either standing near the DJ console or near the lightings controls.

But I need to be at the Book Fest 2006 instead! I will need to station at Expo for the entire day, by the time I'm done, Cheerobics would have ended already!

Arghh!!!

The reasons why I want to see Cheerobics is because...

1. I have never seen a cheer leading competition before.
   
   
2. I may be able to see Skybellz there. She did mention something about this event afterall. And she used to be a cheerleader. I'm not sure about now.
   
   
3. I may be able to see Tammy from NYP there.

But the main reason is because I get to see an overdose of girls in hot costumes dancing away to hot music!

Haiz, some things never change...

Shall hope for some hot bookworm babes at Expo tomorrow.

Kena saboh-ed

Knowing that I had a sorethroat, my mother woke me up this morning and fed me cough syrup in my half dreamy state.

I thought she fed me the lohankuo cough syrup which she always does.

Little did I know that she fed me Woods Peppermint cough syrup instead.

Now, taking woods peppermint cough syrup requires technique. I need to take it on a full stomach, or else I sure kena gastric.

Yep, within 10 minutes, I was squirming in pain on the bed that even my mother was scared and wondered what happened.

I ask her what she fed me and upon knowing the answer, I told her how my stomach reacts to woods peppermint cough syrup on an empty stomach.

The pain subsided after a large cup of warm water.

What a way to wake up!

A sense of deja vu

Even amidst these busy times, someone is being ostracized.

No, I'm not talking about myself. I'm talking about my classmate. Noone has said anything about it, but from what I can see, it is very clear cut.

He was confiding in me during the bus journey home about the situation.

He told me a few things.

1. About how someone was talking about going to sing karaoke or going Zouk this weekend and she didn't have the basic courtesy of asking him, especially when he was within earshot of the entire conversation.
   
   
2. About how coming to school is a waste of time as it was not as fun as last time.
   
   
3. About how he has wasted a year, as it is the last semester and he feels that he still have to make new friends.
   
   
4. About how someone used to be so close to him but after the Elizabeth incident, he just doesn't seem to want to mix around with him anymore. I believe his exact words were "He want to have minimum contact with me is it?"
   
   
5. How everyone is minding their own business and treating him like a wall.
   
   
6. About how he is sure that people are talking behind him back saying that he has found new friends to talk to etc etc.
   
   

I can see where he is coming from. But not wanting to take sides, I told him about what I think.

1. He needs to change his mindset about school.
   
   
2. He needs to set his priorities right.
   
   
3. The point of coming to school is to study, not have fun.
   
   
4. He can't expect everyone to go his way. Sometimes, being left out is inevitable.
   
   
5. He hardly attend lectures, and he claimed that he is lonely, of course lah!
   
   
6. Even as his only friend in school (thats what I think), I can't accompany him to slack outside the lecture room because if I slack, who is going to help me? Sure, I believe my other classmates will help me if I ask for their help but there is only so much others can help me with. I still need to rely on my own efforts.
   
   
7. If everyone is studying together, they will know how tough the semester is together. (Think army)
   
   
8. If everyone is working hard and suffering together, they are more willing to help and entertain each other, hence the conversations.
   
   
9. Usually, going out to go clubbing or singing is usually planned last minute. So don't take the talking of plans so seriously.
   
   
10. If they really left you out, is there a need to feel so bad? My classmates hardly asks me to go to their favourite joints because they know I don't like it. Likewise, I don't ask them to go to my favourite joint either. Because most of the time, they already have a group of friends to go with. Asking more people to go along is more about company.
    
    
11. In summary, he should change and help himself so that people will help him and entertain him.

But after so much advice and solutions, I still did not tell him the ugly truth on why people are ostracizing him.

I'm sure everyone knows, not everyone can take MCs like him. If everyone is working hard and suffering together, would they want to be associated with a person who is not putting in effort and yet still score higher than them in the final exam?

I know I am still associating with him not because I want to, but I have to. As a fellow project mate, I cannot let my project grades to be destroyed by my unhappiness. Furthermore, there is already tension between he and another group member already. I'll just keep my role of a peace maker for now.

I pledged that I will not entertain his nonsense anymore, especially if it comes to school work. To me, its work before play. After work, I can entertain him as much as possible, IF I want to that is.

I know how it feels to be left out. A sense of deja vu. A been there done that. But I wasn't ostrazied. I just felt very lonely for a period of time.

Me and my buddies were meeting and going out every week. Then one by one got attached and had no time to meet up.

That was my most down period I reckon. But I've learnt to take things lightly from then on. If people have no time for me, I will always have other things to keep me occupied. Not everyone can suit my schedule and my lifestyle.

Sometimes, I need to change myself to change the situation to my advantage. So far so good!

Hey, reminds me of the Kolb Learning Cycle! Ha!

Ok, on a light note, how do you combat a fever?

Do you do the western method of showering in cold water and sleeping in aircon and infront of a flowing fan?

or

Do the traditional method of showering in hot water and sleeping with thick clothings and sweat it all out?

Hmm, did I write about this before? I can't remember. Oh well, dinner time!

Toodles!

From bad to worse to cannot make it!

Last night at Music Underground was the worst night ever!

The DJ didn't play any Eurodance music until 4am! The crowd (whats left of it) literally went wild upon hearing eurodance being played. Myself included. And when he did, he only played for 20 minutes!

I was like what the fuck? Hello? Is the management of Music Underground blind or something?

No one is practically dancing on the dancefloor with all that RnB crap loh! From where I was standing, it looked like though those who were on the dancefloor were chitchatting standing up.

If we wanted RnB, there is always other bigger and better clubs to go to. Stop trying to be one of the clubs. People go to a certain club is it plays the kind of music they like in the first place. Stick to Eurodance.

If RnB music is the path Music Underground intends to head to, I reckon they will lose ALOT of customers.

If thats the case, I will have no more homeground. Weekend entertainment will be boring. And the only reason why I go clubbing is because I have an occasion to drink. No club, no drinks.

I may just stay away from alcohol altogether.

My Momo experience

I am still learning to try to appreciate RnB.

Those joints of mine just seem too stiff to groove to the beat, this kind of music can dance one meh?

As far as I know. My joints only loosened up when they started playing House music to "chase" away the crowd.

House music is the closest to my favourite genre of music you see.

But by then my friends were already getting to leave.

Bah.

Some things I've observed and experienced last night...

1. Why do people like to take the ball bearings out of the liquor bottle? What purpose does it serve?
   
   
2. Last night was the first time someone told me that I look better with my spectacles on. I'm still having doubts over her sentence.
   
   
3. To my left is a couple. To my right is a couple. To my front is a couple. Everywhere I look, I see couples. Last night's scenario reminded me of this.
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*Drools*

Suspicious Bastard has uploaded a video of a girl dancing to some fast food song.

With that kind of looks, I don't mind being baited.

She is the type of girl I like but can't seem to get.

Or maybe its just me.

Oh well, maybe I'll try my luck at Club Momo tonight.

I don't like that place but I need to destress.

Ok, I'm late. Bye!

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to my blog!

Have I been blogging for a year already? Time really flies.

What started out as an activity due to boredom has lead to an activity which I enjoyed!

Who would have thought I could write this long? Its simply amazing.

And its nice to know that there are people out there who actually enjoy reading this blog of mine. The number of bookmark viewers just keep increasing!

I wonder how long can I keep this up, because school work is definitely piling up with deadlines to meet. Furthermore, when I graduate, I wonder if I have any more interesting things to write about when I enter the work force.

Lets hope eh.

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Since its my blog's birthday, I shall start off with the contents I found interesting in this week's issue 8 days!

I usually buy 8 Days to get my weekly dose of Jason Hahn's articles, but no point buying the whole magazine and just read one article right?

Anyway, I was reading the rest of the magzine on the bus ride home today and found out that Sony Ericsson is coming up with more phone designs!

Upon reaching home, I surfed straight into Sony Ericsson's website and voila!


Sony Ericsson K610i

Oh man, I think I'm really falling in love with his one. And to think I just fell in love with W810i two months ago!


Sony Ericsson W810i

Not much difference with the specifications. The only key difference is that K610i is a 3G phone while the w810i is not.

I've always wanted a 3G phone but the models available in the market right now just don't catch my eye.

Its lucky I didn't sign up for another 2 years plan and get the W800i back then.

I shall just wait it out until K610i hits the shelves.

PS: All pictures were taken from Sony Ericsson's website.

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Another thing I saw in the magazine.

The FHM Girl Next Door 'Gatecrasher' Party Tour!

The top 20 finalists will be hitting the bars and clubs to party on Thursday, March 2.

Thats tomorrow night!

Apparently, the lineup will be...

10pm @ the Balcony
11pm @ Siam Supper Club
12pm @ Devils Bar
1am @ Thumper

I wonder if Janice is still in the top 20.

Janice, if you are reading this, reply leh! If you are still in the competition, I tomorrow sure go down support one!

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The day after 28th of February. No wonder she didn't come to school today. She must be out there enjoy herself.

If you have no idea what I'm talking about..

Its HER birthday.

For me, I had to be in school because of the bloody waste of time presentation.

Thank goodness my group's presentation went through peacefully with plenty of laughter from the audience. I guess we really did pull it off.

Wheres the oomph?!

Remember my previous post about coming up with an example for my upcoming presentation?

I said I was either going to be very daring or very evil.

I chose the evil route.

But I still had to bypass the rehersals which took place today at my place.

Lets just said that my target of example wasn't really very happy.

His face was all black!

So I had to edit...

and edit...

and edit...

After much editing, I feel that theres no more oomph in my example already.

Damn!