Why like that?

I was just talking to Michelle on MSN. She was telling me all about her laziness in coming to school every morning and how she will do anything to get back to sleep after waking up. I can't spare you the details... must give her some privacy lah.

Actually is I scared kena sued by her wor! I'm walking on dangerous grounds by just putting her name in this blog post!

Anyway, I asked her whether she got any motivation to go to school since she every morning like that...

MSN Excerpt (Edited)

Me: no motivation to go to sch ah?

Her: hmmz, not really. u got meh?

Me: got. last sem loh

Her: y?

Me: got so much gossips to share, but this sem like no more liao

Her: lol

Me: but this sem like no more liao. everyone living in their own world

I then proceeded to ask her if she was from the diploma batch and asked her how was it then compared to now. She replied that then was more fun because the class was small and everyone kinda knew one another, unlike now, all going home after school.

I said that this semester very stress and she shoot me back saying that she is doing one more module than us as she failed one module during her diploma time.

Bo pian. Lan lan kena shoot back with this I also cannot say back. We proceeded to talk about other school related matters and happenings.

Safe topics never fail.

If I talk dirty like what I do to my other friends, I scared kena sued for sexual harrassment and defamation sial! Double impact!

Cannot cannot. Safety first.

With regards to the above conversation, I can't help but wonder... why like that huh? Last semester my clique got along so well... there was motivation to come to school because of gossips, jokes, Extended lecture breaks and makan sessions.

Fun.

This semester, my clique starts skipping classes and sometimes I find myself joining other groups for lunch. Damn sad sial...

It also appears that there are some internal conflicts going on also.

Although everyone is keeping a straight face, I can tell by observing. But I also don't want to be so kaypoh and ask so much. Just hoping for some good samaritarian classmate to tell me whats going on, if there is anything to begin with.

In the meantime, I'll just put my socialising skills to good use and start mixing around. In fact, I didn't have lunch with my clique today! I had lunch with another group. Not that anyone minded. Like I said, everyone is living in their own world.

On the bright side, mixing around isn't so bad. I get to hear other group's gossips and their happenings. Interesting, but since I'm like a I-know-who-you-are-but-I-don't-talk-to-you-much lecture mate to them, I have to stick to the safe topics as usual, like "Hows your project coming along? Hows your revision for tests?" as topic starters.

Oh crap, speaking of tests, I have an upcoming 40% test which consist of 10 topics! 1 topic is roughly about 30 pages.

CRAZY sial! HOW TO STUDY? One topic per day? By the 10th day I forgot about topic 1 how?

Somemore, I have a feeling that I won't do well for my previous 20% test for another module. The lecturer cheated us all! Gave us hints on what to study, in the end not even half of it came out! Blardee hell...

Need to redeem myself. My results from last semester and this is totally night and day. I better find a good studying method.

Fast.

Got tips share hor...